It was going to be great. At least i like the idea. It was a self portrait of Van Gogh. His technique, full of rounds and circles and screaming colors, he actualy self portraited his piece of madness.

I was going to paint him in soft pastels, but in a very classical style. A Van Gogh without circles, without Yellow and Green, without his geniosity. It would be my sane Gogh. The portrait of a sad man without his most important thing(the style[like a cage]).

Well, it didnt work... i dont know why... i simply coudnt reach it ok. It end messed and blur, i got frustrated and now i am wandering what i am going to do, cause i wont finish that one.

Just feel like write this journal to express a bad work of mine, since i only post the things i think are good... well i'm posting a terrible work now.

But i'm ok. All the rest(of my present feeling and life) is wonderfull. All but this messed canvas.

Ivan Cavallazzi

Well, now that i got a break in the university, i ll start a portrait in soft pastels. May take some weeks untill it is finished.
I am also thinking about an ink paisagism, and one watercolor piece. These last 2 will wait until the first is done. If i post the ink or the watercolor first it is because i got frustrated .

Right now i am thinking about it... like always... the work done in front of an empty canvas. Like always... intimidating.